Rain or shine, won't you open up your mind To the endless possibility that the light will haunt you in due time Peeking through Scratched Up Windows at what only God knows Send your spirit out your mouth unto the glass I'll draw your smile, it's been awhile since I felt your laugh Come to think of it... When's the last time that I saw you? Is there something that you're hiding? Why can't I just start the sleeping, when for years I've been lying down? Take it all away: the blue sky and the blue song to the heart Shining underneath is you and me as we are I'll hold your hand, no matter the distance.. In your gorgeous eyes, the world can feel so cold Just a testament to the wisdom of your soul Reality's a wrecker of our mold. Through all the sleepless nights and all the fading lights I swear to you, I'd never leave or hide Though I've lived life as a liar, know you've got a true admirer And I'd love to take you higher But if I'm only weighing you down, then I surely won't linger around and stop Take it all away: the blue sky and the blue song to the heart Shining underneath is you and me as we are I'll hold your hand, no matter the distance.. Through the flames that seem to carry you away Through the third-degree burns that scar when it starts to rain Dangling knives above our head with only torn-up scraps to make this bed We know: nothing's forever We'll smash the pane (pain) with our crown of thorns Stop getting stuck inside the mess of what we've done It's acceptable to latch on to each other. I'll hold your hand if you put up resistance I'll hold your hand no matter the distance I'll hold your hand into the hell of it all

I just can't stay in one place too long without feeling like I'm wasting away Finally left my room, drove to the open ocean, and it smelled like shit Walked a couple blocks and watched the burning buildings turn into blackened bricks Turn the lights off to turn the tube on, don't ask the questions that feel wrong In our twilight, we'll party all night, we'll never see the sun Time, running out of time and no one cares We're running out of time, running out of lines, yeah life's not fair And almost out of time, and back into the old grind, in the filthy air Do you really care? Cause no one cares, then no one's there Won't you come on over and just scooch a little closer to me dear? Your voice is kinda quiet and I'm searching for some pretty sounds to hear. Won't you come on down? Well here we go, here we go, here we go: go home Once I light the fire, well I might just have to go stand in the flames Baby I thought that we both knew that I'm insane Cause nothing's as it seems Yeah life is but a dream 1, 2, 3, won't you follow me outside? We're not coming back this time Check this out, it's so sublime No need to pack your bags or worry, cause she'll wash away your vice Hey though it might take time Don't try and run away because I tried that yesterday I practically lost my mind I tried to medicate, hoping I'd find my way Collapsed into bleeding arms that I couldn't save Lying in a broken bed, in way over my head Trying to mend the holes in the wall from when I was just a kid Pulling my blanket close, it don't cover my toes And my rock collection, collected affection, out the door So we're out the door, out the door There'll be more I'm not saying all hope's lost

The priceless aroma, far into tasty comas Makes me wonder why I can't ignore the fact That I'm a filthy liar and I'm preaching to the choir in my head "What's right and what's wrong" is just a blurry song And it's blasting in my ear all year long I really can't determine so I guess I'll just keep burning out my lungs Well no one really gets me and I do not fucking care Because my real concerns are stabbing me, I'm totally aware And I could attack them head on but I'd really rather not So I'll exhale all the smoky lies, laugh, and eat, and cough Oh dear herb, your joy rubs off your tangled hair and purple eyes Deodorant as my disguise I might just let them smell it, then they're asking me to sell it then and there Sensation, so tingly, let my body fall unto thee Then I'll laugh it off, and my senses are now craving I'll probably buy a pizza, hope it's not a big deal to ya, or you can fuck yourself Well no one really gets me and I do not fucking care Because my real concerns are stabbing me, I'm totally aware And I could attack them head on but I'd really rather not So I'll exhale all the smoky lies, laugh, and eat, and cough Nowhere we're going, except out of this reality To escape the tortures of our humanity Marijuana, you can shake me from my somber And I beg you stay just to live another day Release the flame, it burns the pain, and puff it so you'll never hurt again Well no one really gets me and I do not fucking care Because my real concerns are stabbing me, I'm totally aware And I could attack them head on but I'd really rather not So I'll exhale all the smoky lies, laugh, and eat, and cough tonight

Would you like a receipt, in case this all goes terribly wrong? You found out somehow And I’m fucking up again, cutting ties I cannot mend And I breathe in dark winds And I cough it out in vain, I’m your lost pet in the rain So, take me in and comb your fingers through my tangled hair You could kiss me harder, but you better be aware That you’re bound to ask the stars where I went Answers exist but you will not find them And I’d be remiss to say that it all will work out in the end Every time I smell the blood and see the tears Well it tears me apart Your broken future is all you got, you gotta be someone you’re not You ready to start? Inquiry and surgery, incisions of the heart And I wish I could save you from the dark You found out by now And I’m just about to leave, can’t return what I receive Shedding weak wrongs, we don’t have to get along When I break your strings and smash you up against the fucking wall and.. Answers exist but you will not find them And I’d be remiss to say that it all will work out in the end Through the smiles, sweater sleeves, and autumn leaves I could sense the despair And you, and me, and he, and she, we best believe our broken toes Are rocking that chair The day will come when we take the leap or learn how to be And I wish I could make you believe I wanna make you believe

20 years go flying by and here I am still crying like I’m 4 years old Over some toy that I did want but can’t have Wow, how life’s a drag Everybody wants to be a loser in their own mind Everybody wants to be a winner in their own right With that life I simply must be done So have fun You won’t find me now, cause I’m running from the mystery You won’t find me now, cause I’m done repeating history You won’t find me now, you won’t find me now Yes, I know, your haunting eyes are piercing me But a piece of you won’t bring me peace It was nice to meet Spiders crawling on my skin, my stomach’s surely rupturing And I don’t know how to make it stop Well, I wanna come home to you You won’t find me now, cause I’m running from the mystery You won’t find me now, cause I’m done repeating history You won’t find me now, you won’t find me now Breaking all the rules that I thought were allowed Lost my fucking head up in the cloud Running every second for you cause that’s all that I gotta do To keep my head on tight, to hold the light You won’t find me now, cause I’m running from the mystery You won’t find me now, cause I’m done repeating history You won’t find me now, you won’t find me

Echoed thoughts on empty streets And my hands are clapping off the beat This I know Fate's been cast on broken glass And I finally lost my friends at last Way to go Then the sky gets dark and all I see Is a tiny little light in front of me A tickle on my shoulder and a voice in my ear And why I hurt comes clear I've been a monster lately Hiding from monsters, maybe I could find my way with you I could build a home with you I've been a monster lately Hiding from monsters, maybe I could find my way with you I could build a home with you I could live my life with you

Yesterday my voice was higher And the world wasn’t filled with liars But that’s all in the past Watch the little boy win his race for the first time See the little guy kiss her face for the first time Watch the growing boy lose his mind And I try to leave it all behind But honestly, I wish that I could climb back into the innocence Of an earlier me, eyes lined with deep black To a family, Sunday morning with flapjacks To the memories, that feel much safer than where I am now We’re growing older but this train’s not going any slower Can’t look twice, gotta fall into her eyes Cause your parents were not lying to you when they said that time does Fly away from you before you’re ready To let go of all the frames and faces that you know And now, nothing’s rest assured We’re growing older but this train’s not going any slower Smiles are getting colder as the weight piles up on our shoulders Go burn the photographs, if it really sets you free Go fill your glasses full cause you’re bold and fresh 18 And on a lonely night, when your childhood is consuming your mind Know you’re not coming home this time

Though once we were a flame We’ve been running into walls and playing games With our feelings and our future, that’s a shame When you told me that you loved me It’s kinda fucking sad that I believed you Thought we’d be the kind of friends that actually last But over again You repeatedly blew off your end Of the bargain and the friendship that I held dear to me Now I refuse to sing along To your transparencies and wrongs So I won’t be standing near When you’re searching for an ear When you’re drowning in your tears Where the fuck were you these years? Over again You repeatedly blew off your end Of the bargain and the friendship that I held dear to me Now I refuse to sing along To your transparencies and wrongs So, so long, my dear So long

As the darkness poured into my room I poured the torn-up sheets over my head Closing my eyes tightly I could no longer tell dark from dark I was a child again. In a whisper, she came to me Prying up the roots of this hollowed-out tree An arresting ring of wonder seemed so sure around my throat But among 18 burning candles, I fell apart to let it go What nobody knows is what nobody knows Whatever nobody knows is what nobody knows Sometimes you gotta watch your step on the bright line of life Sometimes you gotta stumble down the long dark road The water stills with lovers’ chills, purified by lonely nights The angels sing when you learn to take it slow The angels sing when you learn to let it go But “you” won’t see And I don’t care I don’t care now No I don’t care I don’t care now No I don’t care, cause I’ve gotta break out Yeah I’ve gotta break out I’m gonna break out (Yanni: 1, 2, 3, 4!!!) Sometimes you gotta watch your step on the bright line of life Sometimes you gotta stumble down the long dark road The water stills with lovers’ chills, purified by lonely nights The angels sing when you learn to take it slow The angels sing when you learn to let it go The angels will sing (Josh Trimble solo) Do you hear the noise inside the rainbow-colored waterfall? The white grains kissing on our skin The sun will shine upon it all Tripping down memory lane and rolling through the flower beds A dark blue man and fuzzy girl Ask if we’re falling off our heads And I say to both them: You just can’t understand I’ve walked a million times Down a thin white line Here I shine And I am a pounding drum Around walls of silent lies and disillusion Which I am part of, no doubt I’m running circles in and outside The deepest corners of my very lost mind, false mind Hoping to fit in I dream of waking up and faking an existence of significance Smiling everyday, all day long But here lies lonely hearts and broken hearts Ones learning how to master arts of fucking all they see Our names hail from our darkest days As we stumble off into the purple haze, always asking How could souls ever find love? Love that basks in plastic trust We’re bloody and fucked up, running into walls again We ain’t ever gonna win! Go and shut your mouth, you bitch! We’re falling off this bridge! (…I was a child again) But then the Earth began to shake and the roar of a million lions Could not overpower the noise of crumbling walls And the violent screams in my head In the midst of it all The sweet memory of her lullaby climbed up into my mind She sang it to me, and I sang it to the world Within moments I was standing tall upon the mattress Breathing in every last bit of the surrounding darkness I became one, then we became one I smiled In its final breath, it tore open the wall in front of me In poured a beam of fresh, golden light That fell peacefully upon my tired eye Much love. Peace.